The Journey Of My Life

Yeah, I think all of us must have hopes, dreams…or whatever it called…(only dead people don’t :D)
We always set our hopes as high as possible, altough we know that we can’t always achieve it all…be optimistic, isn’t it?

The main problem is, what will we do when we can’t get our hope?

crying?
mourning?
hopeless?
wanna die? NOOO!!! :o, don’t even think about that…!!

heheh…for me, when it’s happened…it’s like a giant walls was surrounded upon me…i can’t go forward, backward, up, down, or left, or right…simply…I can’t move…or in fact…I don’t want to move…:(

I’m blaming, feeling pity of myself (this is the right time to play blues, just kidding :p)…I feel useless, and I often complained God in my pray: "God, i have a very, very big problem right now…I need Your help! Please help me!" (notify the exclamation mark…yeah! i dictated God…how ironic)

But, what a lovely God I have…He don’t mind it, instead He gave me the answer…unfortunately, I can’t heard it.

He answered again…heard nothing…
He answered again…still can’t heard…
He answered again…oh my God! am I deaf? :O

No! It was because of my sin, so it’s like He was far, far away, whereas He’s always near from the very beginning.

End of the world? hmm, don’t forget that He’s very faithful…
He answered in another ways that I didn’t ever imagined before (of course…)

How? Mostly He answers by the peoples around me, such as my mother, my friends, etc…after i realized it…that God gave me answers, I can’t refrain to bow down, crying and pray: "Thank You, God. Why You’re so kind to me…?"

Oftenly, I remember this song:

Here I am, humbled by Your Majesty
Covered by Your grace so free
Here I am, knowing I’m a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed but alive in Your Hands
[Majesty, by: Delirious?]

And I didn’t say again: "God, I have a very big problem",
but I said: "Hey problem! I have a very big God!"

Again, thank You God, my pleasure to have Lord like You…

GBU.
D.R.

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